Spiritual Growth: You Didn’t Give Up. You Grew Past It.
- Nicole Pope
- May 14
- 5 min read
There is a weird kind of grief that happens when something you once loved starts to feel too small. Not wrong. Not bad. Not like you made a mistake. Just no longer big enough to hold who you are becoming.
For me, that thing was traditional evidential mediumship. Not mediumship itself. Not spirit communication. Not connecting with departed loved ones, because I still deeply love that work. But the way I had been holding it, explaining it, and offering it no longer felt like the full picture. I could still bring through evidence, personality, memories, and messages. I could still help people feel the presence of their loved ones. But something in me wanted to go deeper.
I didn’t want to stop at, “Your loved one is still with you.” I wanted to understand the soul-level connection. Why this person mattered. What the relationship taught. What the contract was. What the pattern had been. How the connection was still shaping the person sitting in front of me. No matter what kind of reading someone booked, that is where my sessions naturally went. We ended up talking about soul contracts, past lives, Akashic Records, spirit guides, purpose, healing, and the bigger architecture of the person’s life.
Eventually, I had to admit the truth: I wasn’t just doing evidential mediumship anymore. I was doing soul mediumship.
When Spiritual Awakening Starts to Feel Uncomfortable
We love to talk about spiritual awakening like it is all angel numbers, synchronicities, butterflies, and perfectly timed signs from the universe. And sometimes it is. But sometimes spiritual awakening looks like losing passion for something you thought you would love forever.
Sometimes it looks like outgrowing a modality, a service, a business model, an identity, or a version of your spiritual gifts that used to feel exciting. Sometimes it looks like being annoyed by the very thing that once opened the door for you. That part can feel confusing, especially when the thing still works. Especially when people still know you for it. Especially when you built part of your business around it.
But something can work and still no longer be aligned.
That is the uncomfortable truth. Your soul is not loyal to your branding. Your soul is loyal to your evolution.
Mediumship was the doorway that opened everything for me. It taught me how spirit communicates. It taught me how evidence lands. It taught me how healing can happen through one tiny detail that lets someone know their loved one is still with them. I will always honor that. But I am not meant to stand in the doorway forever.
And neither are you.
You Are Allowed to Outgrow the Doorway
Maybe Reiki opened your spiritual path, but now you are being called into deeper energy work. Maybe tarot helped you trust your intuition, but now you are being asked to channel directly. Maybe your current offer helped you build your business, but now your business is asking to become something more honest, specific, and aligned.
That does not mean the original thing failed. It means it worked. It got you here.
This is where so many people get stuck. We think that because something was sacred, meaningful, or life-changing, we have to stay loyal to it forever in the same exact form. But growth does not work that way. You are allowed to honor the old path without making it your permanent assignment.
There is also a new wave of spiritual seekers entering this space right now. People are becoming curious about mediumship, psychic development, spirit guides, Akashic Records, energy work, galactic connections, and spiritual awakening in a bigger way. And honestly, I love that. Welcome. Come in. Get weird. Ask questions. Learn what is possible.
But also, please be discerning. Anytime there is a wave of spiritual awakening, there is also a wave of fear-based content, rigid rules, spiritual charlatans, and people trying to make the unseen world sound terrifying so they can position themselves as the only safe authority. That is not sovereignty. Spirit communication should empower you. Energy work should help you understand yourself more deeply. Mediumship should expand your perspective, not shrink your power.
Practitioners Are Evolving Too
This transformation is not only happening for people who are new to spirituality. Practitioners are feeling it too. A lot of people who have been doing this work for years are receiving bigger downloads, questioning old modalities, losing passion for certain services, and feeling called into a deeper expression of their gifts.
That can be terrifying when you have a business, because it is one thing to evolve privately. It is another thing to evolve publicly when people have already decided who you are, what you do, and why they come to you.
But your spiritual business is not separate from your evolution. It is one of the places your evolution will show up first.
You may start attracting different clients. You may feel less available for surface-level work. You may want to change your offers, your language, your pricing, your audience, or the entire way you describe what you do. That does not mean you are unstable. It may mean your frequency has changed, and your business needs to catch up.
When I allowed the phrase soul mediumship to land, it was not just a new title. It was an energetic correction. Suddenly, the work made sense. My sessions made sense. My clients made sense. My obsession with soul contracts, soul purpose, Akashic Records, and deep transformation made sense.
Sometimes the next level of your business is not something you need to invent.
Sometimes it is something you finally need to admit.
The Grief Means It Mattered
There can be grief in growing past something. That grief does not mean you are making the wrong choice. It means the old chapter mattered.
You are allowed to feel sad when an old identity no longer fits. You are allowed to miss the clarity of knowing what you do. You are allowed to feel nervous when spirit asks you to become a beginner again. Because that is often what growth requires. You master one level, and then spirit opens the next door like, “Beautiful. Now start over.”
Rude? Yes. Accurate? Also yes.
But the old path was not wasted. The old modality was not wrong. The old version of you was not confused. It was part of the path. It was just never meant to be the whole path.
So here is the question: where are you calling it failure when it might actually be evolution? Where are you telling yourself you gave up, when the truth is that you already learned what that chapter came to teach you? Where are you standing in the doorway because you feel guilty walking through it?
Spiritual transformation is not always about becoming more. Sometimes it is about admitting what no longer fits. Sometimes it is about letting the old identity be sacred without forcing it to be permanent.
You did not give up on it.
You grew past it.
And if that is true, the next question is not, “What did I lose?”
The next question is, “What is finally ready to open?”
